and i need to remember
normal
what normal is
was
carved cross the length of my arms
hooked round the base of my heart
punched through
every time i kissed you
every time i fell forward into your arms
every time i ran towards each moment together
you tell me you can't fix this
and i know
have known for a while
but i still do not know what's wrong
whether i am capable of fixing this
and i am afraid
so afraid
afraid i won't get back to normal
what is normal
where can i find it
how do i get to there
just what the fuck is wrong with me
because i do not like the slide
between each pale page of emotions
where i am stable then rocking
you tell me to get help
because you don't know what you can do anymore
that in the end this
is something i need to do
and i know this
but do not even know how to characterize
talk speak open any sort of words
to tell this story
and what exactly is going on anymore
for even this poetry is uncertain
