I Mourn the Loss

Of yesterday,

A yesterday where all my moments dwell

And a wish for not the halting of time,
but for its advancement to slow.
 

 I mourn the loss,

Of all who came,

All who came into my world

But now no more than dusty memories.
 

 I mourn the loss,

Of each year,

Each year that came and left

Shaving off another year from that face.
 

 I mourn the loss,

Of the day,

The day that was bright and sunny

Now shifting colours from that brightness

Into the singleness of the night.
 

I mourn the loss,

Of myself,

Myself who was here in this moment

And then scraped away once a new moment arrived.
 

 I mourn the loss,

Of today,

Today where I stay and feel everything

But will soon switch into what was,

Never to come again.



Chasing Butterflies

How does one let go of the child,
And grow up
How does one move on
From unfinished feelings
Where does an old life take the soul,
And how can it start anew.

Constantly going from one being to another
No breaks, no thoughts, just flight
Running towards one dream
But never catching
Never understanding
Missing the details and never seeing it for what it is.

A fleeting fantasy
Delicate and beautiful,
Mysteriously enticing;
Failing in its capture.

It’s time to take a step back
To examine the shattered heart
Patch it up
Save it from breaking entirely.

It’s time to stop chasing.

 

The Dream

I knew

I would wake up

That it was too bright,

Too perfect to be real.

All those glimmering smiles,

Those sweet vanilla words

Dripping off their mouths.

The evenings were almost manageable,

Just a thought of seeing those

Colorful, lovely faces;

Faces which weren’t meant to be mine.

I had become light,

Vibrant and weightless

Reflecting those colorful faces,

Smiling with possibility

Singing with clarity.

But I am colourless

I was not meant to touch that light.

A window had been formed

Keeping me apart, long before I had hope

Before it became a dream;

A dream too real

A dream too perfect

A dream that wasn’t mine to have

But of course

A dream that inevitably had to

End.